May 2013
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Rise
Divide the night into a divine puzzle,
shattered into pieces to create a new dazzling view.
Take what you want, to become what you need.
As you delicately place each piece,
threading together a beautiful destiny.
The moon becomes the guiding light,
as each star is lined making life seem finally bright.
Galaxies are placed and planets
give such a mysterious strength.
Like shattered glass...
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Written in the Stars
When I think of love, I see your lips.
I feel my heart beat faster than a humming bird flies, as you move them towards mine. I feel the electricity surge through my entire body, shocking me with life each time my heart whispers your name. When I look into your eyes I see a perfect future. Bathed in the warmth of your presence. Each breathe you take fills me with enough courage to take on the...
April 2013
3 posts
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The Makers Taker
The ice cold blade of Death
Teases me
As He runs his fingers
down my spine
Whispering to me,
You’ll be mine in time
Shivering through my naked core
Seeing life
Through the eyes of Death
I am home
Sick satisfaction
Comes with feeling wanted
Needing His touch
He lights my soul on fire
Such sadistic desire
Knowing when I awake
An empty shell awaits
So I savour
Every second with...
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Just To Be With You
I will throw a rope around the moon, just to be alone with you. I will catch a star, steal a car, to dance tonight with you. If the love I have could be measured, it would rip the seams of space and time. I would fill the sun with endless love just to know you’re mine. I will dance the dance that makes it rain to keep you entertained. I will build a house into a home, just to sleep next to you. In...
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Crossroads
Crossroads,
Oh how I’ve tried to sway my desert roads away from you.
I have tried.
I have died.
Traveled through heaven and hell,
finding no place in either side,
for a soul such as mine.
In the night,
I ride a mustang darker
than the devils eyes,
faster than an angel flies.
So I ride.
I will fly.
Dressed in an immortal disguise.
I feel them trying to track me down, Heavens...
March 2013
3 posts
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Home
The warmth I’ve searched my life for, was found with your arms. The warmth that the holidays bring. The peace and happiness of feeling truly at home. I found that one winter night, in the form of bright blue eyes and a welcoming smile. A sparkle that was made for only me. I saw everything I wanted to be in your eyes that night. A smile escaped my lips that only you could bring. And years later the...
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Celebrate life daily
As I see it, each day is a gift. What you do with it is completely up to you. Life is a precious thing. Worth every trial, every heartache. The future is being built with today’s actions. With the past fueling the fire to complete our dreams and desires.
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February 2013
1 post
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January 2013
7 posts
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Fear of Change
The fear of change
The unknowns dark mist
Wondering if it all
Will bring the final bliss
Or leave you alone
To burn in the flames
Of all that you knew
All your untouched dreams
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Love Has Set Me Free
To be loved fully and unconditionally and get you through anything. I am so blessed to have found such a love. It has grown into more than I ever knew possible. Letting go of fears and insecurities opened me up to the warmth it can bring. Burns hotter than the sun. I wonder if I deserve such a thing sometimes. He deserves so much more than I am right now. But, every day I am becoming a better...
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I'm full of fictions and fucking addictions
And I miss my mother.
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I got a new job!
Instead of building Drones, I will now get to build more prototype manned aircrafts! Which means I get to move back to the high desert with my fiance. I am excited and nervous to let go of the known for the unknown. But to be a part of aerospace history will be amazing. Hoping no bad news follows the good. For now, I celebrate the opportunity! Omnia causa fiunt!
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December 2012
3 posts
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Death Follows Closely
He follows me so close. The icy breathe of Death, running down my spine. A reminder of the end all must meet, no escaping time. Though, as I walk through the valley, I will not fear Death. For he means no harm. Just welcoming arms. To be led into the final eternity. Where all will make sense. It has to make sense. All happens with reason, he says. I believe him. How could I not? For if there is no...
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Road to Reason
One day I will live like the wind. I will gain back all I was, leaving behind any bad. I will be happy, full of spunk, energetic, and courageous. I will be the best possible me. The road is long, this I know. But I will do whatever it takes to be that free soul again. In the ashes of the past, we thrive. Growing into so much more. One day I will become my own Northern Star. Guiding me into the...
November 2012
3 posts
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New Dawn
Lost in my Sorrows
My mind caving in
With your hand upon mine
The dawning begins
The light reaches my eyes
My thoughts become clear
All my worries wash away
along with my fears
The look in your eyes
tells me those days are gone
The warmth of your heart
Is my new life’s own dawn
You found me half broken
So torn and so lost
Still you gave me a chance
Fates coin you did toss
I...
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October 2012
10 posts
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I'm still here
And to those of you who’ve stayed, I thank you. I have been dealing with a lot. But, that light at the end is within reach. Thank you again for not bailing for lack of words.
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'I love you more and more every day'
The words that you say.
Are what warms my soul
On these cold lonely nights.
Without you by my side.
I will always wait right here.
For you, my love, my dear.
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Depression is not easy
But despite your eagerness for feeling alone, you are not. You never will be. Because at that exact moment where you are searching for a single soul to reach out and understand, they are searching on the other end. Giving up is easy, fighting it is a hard and courageous thing. And conquering that fear, the loneliness, will fill you will a sense of purpose. Hands are made to hold. To share, to show...
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I miss you
My heart is fragile,
I’ve sent it with you.
Please handle with care.
And when you come back,
Know I will be waiting right here.
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For the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me til I fall asleep
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Ghost of Me
Times have cast a shadow down upon
The crown of gold that once held this head up high.
Now thorns bare down.
Piercing scalp.
And pride.
So they say tomorrow will be better.
But I am still too bitter.
And in my dreams I choose to live.
As all the greatest minds once did.
My human body grows weak.
A ghost, masked by skin and bones, walks my part.
Day to day.
It works full time,...
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When the Wall inside comes down
When the wall inside the mind begins to crumble. The memories and thoughts come flooding with a vengeance. It seemed to have been held together by a single thread of sanity for the last decade. But I can feel the leak growing. The insanity building. The wall is going to crumble. And so will I. Everything I’ve tried so hard to forget is coming. It’s coming and there’s no stopping it this time. Just...
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Dear Infinite Wisdom,
Right about now is where I need your help. Just a pinch of luck, or a sign of the right direction. Please don’t leave me alone.
September 2012
19 posts
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Sex Sells
Women have a powerful weapon. One that could save or destroy this world. The ability of extraordinary sensuality. With a simple softening of the eyes, a glance of subtle hunger, she could get anything that was desired. There is a fine line between using your womanhood to get what you want in life, and becoming so self absorbed that a reputation of being a Floosy arises. Keep it mellow. Use that...
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Her Disguise
Tonight the sky is endless.
Stars are dancing and so am I.
In a place with absolute darkness, Leaves me wondering why?
The reflection in my eyes,
Is her beauty shining through.
This universe is her disguise,
These words are the hidden truth.
Her passion and her glory,
Are spread for all to see.
And yet with all our worries,
She will still set us free.
To be the rightful heirs,
...
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Can we just hold each other for the rest of our...
That’s my plan
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Field of Wishes
Today I find myself lying down, in the field of lost wishes. Like stars lost in the night, they become the fallen. Some plant like seeds, growing as the days pass, but never will they be granted. The field of fallen wishes. Such a bewitching place. Lost to the world, as it seems I’ve become. Accepting defeat, I will plant my roots to grow. People walk by in the distance. Seeing only a field of...
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Making a night in, a date night
With the smell of tomato soup and cheesy tuna melts cooking in the air, he kissed me and said, “Hey, we’re on a date”. I smiled, more than just my lips raising to that arch, but through my eyes and down into my soul. ‘Yes, we are’, I reply with a returned kiss and a touch of his hand. The simple things and nights like these are what remind me of the love I have inside for him. I don’t need fancy...
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Let Me Be Your Light
Lead me to the light and I will become the northern star. Bathed in the eternal night as I guide from afar. When you whisper your darkest secrets, desires and dreams, I will be there to comfort you, to give you what you need. Hearts will grow warm as I sing my lullabye, never will you be alone with the excruciating, why? When you close your eyes, look into mine. The weight of your burdens I will...
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True despair can lead to a beautiful life, if you...
Have you ever truly felt helpless? Where the despair and sorrow actually choke you? Where a storm has grown so strong inside your soul that it begins to tear your life apart? Some people talk of this. Maybe a boy broke your heart. The seemingly most common excuse for feeling what you think is total despair. Everybody’s had a broken heart. I’m talking about the pain from death of a loved one, being...
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Take the Time
Just take a break,
Listen closely.
It’s never going to be okay.
Times are changing
And we are with them
So give into the movements
And ride the motions.
Cause it’s okay,
To accept the inevitable
It’s okay to try and let go.
Leave behind all that’s weighing
Push away that judgement
And live like you were meant to.
Times are changing
And we are with them
So take the time to...
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Battle with Death
Alone on this gloomy day, It’s taking a hold of the last of my sanity. Deaths cold grip grabs my wrist, I shake him away.
Not even death himself can move me. I am a rock today. The strength of Samson is useless, I hold his hair in my hand.
He dares the soldiers of hell, To take me as a challenge. Who will be the one, to finally drag me down?
Smiling now, I welcome them all. Swift honorable...
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Dream sweet.
Let these dreams take me away. So far away to lands unseen. Let there be no bounds as my own true self is found.
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For the Guy That Tore Apart my Soul
Going into the sun, I freeze.
My skin is drained of color.
Walking among the living,
I am perceived as dead.
People look in to my sunken black eyes,
Only to Turn their heads in fear.
All I want is to feel the warmth again.
And it will never happen.
I am lost in this sea of dread.
Scared to walk into my own home.
Love is buried along with my soul.
My Feelings are left at the...
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Taste of Insanity
Hold this for me please, It’s what’s left of my sanity. I cannot lie here and watch it wither away any longer. They say you need it. you should always hold onto it. But, who the fuck are “They” anyway? They are the ones who decide what is right and what is wrong. What is appropriate. Oh, I shouldn’t jump in the water for how long after eating? Well, as always, I’d jump in mid bite with a grin and...
